Reading over it now, I guess I'm not as lost as I was in my last post, but I still haven't found myself. At least part of the weight on my shoulders has been lifted from me recently. I've received offers from 4/5 of my universities, and haven't been rejected for the 5th one yet, so I have a good chance of receiving one from them too! I am so happy because my 2 favourite ones have both given me conditional offers, meaning I have a good chance of getting into either. But the problem is, and there's always a problem, there is no way I'm going to get the grades this year, especially at this rate. OMG last year, geography was the love of my life, my favourite subject, the only thing (except glee club and lunch/break) that I could bear in school. Now it's the worst. First of all I really hate the topics, but on top of that, I have a physical teacher teaching me human, and a human teacher teaching physical, like how the hell is that supposed to work out?!!? I am going to fail really badly because right now I don't know anything to do with human geography. It's a shame because at the beginning of term it looked like geography was my only hope at getting an A (which I kinda need 2 of though..). I feel like I have a good chance at getting an A in Biology, if my bloody geo teachers would back off for a second! I am SWAMPED with geography homework every single lesson. It's the only thing I seem to be spending time on. I really need to turn my self around in Chemistry too after the disaster that was my As grade, but how am I supposed to even BEGIN to revise if all I'm ever doing is trying to get geography done?? Errghh

Hello invisible ones. Yes I haven't blogged in a while. It felt a little funny after the emotional wreck of a post the last blog was.. Anyway quick update on what's going on in my life

Spent the holidays in my homelands of Bangladesh, It was much better than expected, but still fairly boring to be honest.

As results, A Geography, B Biology, D Maths, E Chemistry.

DROPPED MATHS, WOOOHHOOOO!!!!!

Still failing chemistry :( :( :(


Anyway, this is one of the most important times of my life, University application time!!! AND I'm failing at that... Yes I still haven't completely decided on what I'm applying to, but it's mainly between Natural Sciences and Biomedical Sciences right now. I actually would much rather apply to Natural Sciences, but yes I can't because that would mean moving out and my parents aren't going to be letting me do that any time soon so GREAT ISN'T IT! So I'm really stuck, I haven't even started my personal statement, which I really should of. Right now I think a gap year is looking more and more appropriate, now how do I convince my parents about that?

Hello

Hello imaginary people. Or shall I say real people. Or person. I'm not too sure actually. But I know I've been getting more than a couple of views lately, so there must be someone out there. Yeah you can't hide from me. Whoever you are, hello, and welcome to the diary of me. Make yourself at home go ahead and read my posts. This is a place I come to when I need to vent but don't have anyone in particular to vent to. I hope you enjoy finding out about the inner goings on of the mind of Sameeha.

P.S You know I wouldn't mind if you left a comment or a message :)

Third post in one night, go me!

Ok yes it's my 3rd post tonight, but I haven't posted in aaagees and I really need to clear my head and this is one way of doing it.
Ok, forget that old crush. He's done, dusted, I'm over him (ok I don't think I'll ever completely be over him but I've moved on)
There's a new guy I like. I don't know him very well, and I haven't spoken to him much.. but he seems so so nice, and lovely and like a really nice person. I want to get to know him, but I don't get any opportunities lately, plus my awkwardness makes it impossible.
There, had to get that off my chest :)

Yeah, yeah you non existent people can be quiet now, I haven't posted in ages. Don't have an excuse, but whatever, expect this post to be a long one.

Well last month one of my dreams came true. I saw my idol, my hero, my reason for being alive, LIVE. Yes I went to to the Red Tour, London, O2 Arena, Tuesday 4th February 2014. IT WAS THE BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFEE. Well it was supposed to be. Most of it still was, but yes, it did get ruined a little. But lets forget about that, and focus on the good part. I SAW TAYLOR LIVE IN THE FLESH WE WERE IN THE SAME ROOM AND WE BREATHED THE SAME AIR. God she was so perfectly flawless, and beautiful and talented. She sang amazing songs, with amazing choreography, with about a gazillion costume changes, including one on stage. It was a night, in her own words "Full of surprises". Her voice was as beautiful as it sounds on the albums I live my life to. My favourite performance.. hmm... well how can I not say All Too Well?? The most emotional beautiful song ever written. One of the best bits was the secret b-stage song, SHE PERFORMED OURS ♥♥ As if that wasn't enough she decided to have a guest performer. I was very nervous of who it could be in case it was someone I don't know (the last show it was Sam Smith, who majority of the crowd had never heard of) But she brings out no other than DANNY O'DONOGHUE FROM THE SCRIPT!!! AND THEY PERFORMED THE SONG THAT I WAS JUST FALLING IN LOVE WITH AGAIN JUST A COUPLE DAYS BEFORE, BREAK EVEN!!!! The crowd went wild and everyone was screaming along to the words, it was incredible ♥ I dressed up and went all out for the concert, in hopes (even though I knew it wouldn't happen and it didn't) I'd have the slightest chance of getting club red. I made a little red riding hood costume, and made a poster with about a million lights and tons of glitter. I didn't get noticed my Taylor's staff, however the lady at the doors did compliment me saying mine was the most creative costume she had seen yet (Although I did see a girl dressed as a pumpkin). After the Vamps had opened (they were AWESOME btw) and before Taylor came on, we could see lots of people crowding around on the floor. Everyone was wondering who it could be, but I knew straightaway it was Mama Swift!!! I obviously didn't get to meet her as my seats were so high up, but I COULD SEE HER!! And I started freaking out lool.
But yes I'm posting this really late now, but it was the best night of my life ever and I'm suffering serious post concert depression right now