Scared...

Well I made this stupid mistake. I dunno what's gonna happen, but hopefully I'm just worrying over nothing. Only time will tell...

Depressed.

School opens tomorrow, got my full maths GCSE in 2 days, have not prepared, and just found out something else that's put me in a horrible mood. Not a good day. Not good at all.

Stress stress sresss and moree stressss

Not much really to write except for the fact that I have my maths exam on Tuesday and Thursday. So stressed out, though I may not show it much. I will never in a million years get an A*. I asked my mum and she agreed that if I get an A* she'd get me a phone!! And I'm gonna make sure it's the Galaxy s III or if something better has come out by then loool. Got interesting plans tomorrow which I know will lead to me getting embarrassed, but should be fun ;)

Red and Ayishah's party ♥

RED ♥

Hey imaginary readers! Ok this Monday, RED CAME OUT!!! AAARRRGGG!!!! I preordered it ages ago but it hasn't arrived yet, cos they had some delay dispatching it -____- But hopefully I'll have it tomorrow morning ♥ Listened to it on Youtube though, and it's PERFECTION ♥ This week has been awesomely weirdly amazing. Monday we went on an art trip to London, visited the Tate Britain, Tate Modern, went on a boat ride down the Thames, and it was an overall lovely day. Tuesday was horrible. Had to present something in form time thats in the news or media, and I would have played Ronan, but from the advice of my Idiotic friends, and my worries that everyone won't listen cos it's Taylor Swift, I chose to read a news article. And apparently as I read without being able to be more nervous than I was, apparently NO ONE WAS LISTENING!! Then in English my stupid group volunteer us to do our presentation, when I don't even know what I'm doing!!! So I just stood in front of the class looking like a lemon. But anyways, lots of people are finally starting to like Taylor Swift!!! Knew this would happen sooner or later ♥ Anyways it's Eid tomorrow, and I'm gonna spend it with my cousins since their parents are on hajj, and my other cousins are coming round in the evening! YAAAY! Ooooh didn't write about Turkey, (it was goood but cba to talk about it in detail)And OMG MATHS EXAM IN 2 WEEKS, MY FULL GCSE AND YES I'M GONNA FAIL AND I WILL, REPEAT WILL HAVE TO HAVE A RESIT!!! There's no way I can get an A* on this paper, and my stupid teacher won't even have revision classes -____- Don't even know half the topics, and because I was in set 2 in year 9 the rest of the class learnt different things and would have learnt stuff that i didn't already -____- Anyway, gonna try my best to revise the whole of these holidayyss... even though it probably won't happen.... And my album should be arriving tomorrow!!! CAN'T WAIT!!! I'll try to post pics, but for now, byee imaginary people ♥

Stresss

Should really update this, but got too much to do. I'll make sure I definitely do this week or next week though. Hopefully.

Summerr :D

Hi imaginary people who I actually think read these posts I make. Summer is almost over, but the best part is only about to start!! Let me tell you about the first half first. So the day school closed, was also the day ramadan started. So during holidays i go into lazy mode anyway, but since I was fasting for the whole of the days, this was msgnified to SUPER lazy mode. I'd wake up at like 4pm, and stay up all night snd go to sleep at 5pm. And the little time i was actually awake, i would spend either on the internet, praying (which is good I guess) or eating (after sunset of course ;)). Anyways I had made a list of movies I wanted to watch, and i also wanted to finish watching the other 7 seasons of CSI i hadn't seen. On top of that, i had friends telling me to watch all other different tv shows like Pretty Little Liars, suburubatory ( if that's what it's called) and also the Vampire Diaries. Anyways after watching a couple of films, I decided to start watching TVD. BEST DECISION OF MY LIFE!! Omg I was hooked from like the 3rd episode. It is like one of the best shows EVER! I finished all 3 seasons in one week in the end. It was just too gripping to stop watching. So now as I wait for season 4, I've started watching PLL. My movie list, which I was trying to shorten, has gotten longer as I havn't actually been watching many of them. But I watched all 3 paranotmal activities, which were really good. I also watched The devil Inside, which my uncle had told me was supposed to be really good, but it was actually pretty rubbish, so I reccomend not watching it. Anyways, Eid passed a few days ago. It was just another average Eid, full of being force fed samosas, when you're still full from breakfast, and have been forced to eat in every other house you've visited too. Not to mention it was as hot as hell! In the evening though, I wasn't feeling too good so I decided to stay upstairs in my room on my laptop. I didn't even know that we had guests. But when I realised, I didn't really wanna go downstairs to greet them firstly because of the fact I felt like sick, and also because me being shy and antisocial, I just didn't like them and wanted them to leave really, because they were just making alot of noise and making our boiling hot house even hotter with the extra body heat. Anyways later on my mum got really mad at me at me for refusing to go downstairs while we had guests, and took away my laptop. I was so pissed off because she was basically punishing me for feeling sick and being shy. I mean it's not like I can help those things! Do you really think I WANT to be shy and antisocial? I go to sleep every night wishing I had just a little bit more confidence. But that's just who I am, and I can't really control it can I? Anyways, next sunday, I am going on holiday to Turkey!!!! Yaaay!!! Unfortunately, the day before I have to go to some stupid mehndi which is gonns be me once again being antisocial, and all the cousins who I'm not close to probably thinking I'm a loser. How fun. So this ended up being quite a long post, and this is me ending it awkwardly cos I don't really know how I could end it unawkwardly, so anyways, BYE XX

I AM FREE UNTILL SEPTEMBER!! WOOOOOWWW!!!!!!!!

JUST HAD MY LAST EXAM!! WOOOW!! :D I had a few GCSE exams a few weeks ago, and this week and last week, my stupid school made us do end of year exams as well -_-. But anyway, everyone apart from art and textiles students had their last exam yesterday, but we had ours today. Not that we care though, cos the exam is AWESOME!! At first I was like, a 5 hour exam in silence?? No wayy!! But after we started the time flew, and the invidulater (however you spell it) didnt even mind when we wispered to each other. And besides, art is FUN!!! :P :D ^.^ (in a weird mood today so that explains the emoticons..)

AAAHHH STRESS!!

So got my first Exam in 3 days time and haven't even started revising!!! I am sooo dead!! Got a B in the mock, and didn't revise for that either, but that was really easy anyway. Time for last minute revision...

Today I realised...

…its okay to cry. even if there are people around. usually, i hold back the tears, because i care too much about what other people think. today, i didn’t care. i had to let my feelings out. i talked to my friend. I told them what was bothering me. they understood. they helped me. they made me laugh. no, they didn’t make everything better. but at least they tried. and that’s something someone hasn’t done for me in a long time. The best part was, i barely even spoke to them before the past few weeks ♥

Changes..

Yeah i made a few changes to the blog!! I hope you like it!! (if there is a you) Anyway, I got an A* on my last English assessment!!! I was sooo shocked cos English is NOT my subject. I also had my French assessment yesterday. I remembered most of it, and i even got my draft checked by some French people on yahoo answers! lol But I'm worried i might have forgotten small words like a and de and du, and some accents too. But I am sure I'm gonna fail my next English assessment cos its analysing, and i HATE THAT. I mean, WHY SHAKESPEARE??!?!?!?!? What is it about SHAKESPEARE that teachers love so much??!?!?!? He's just another play write, there's nothing special about him what so ever. So why do teachers insist that there's always secret messages hidden in the plays, when it's clearly just a stupid damn play!! I better prepare my self for a D now, cos that's what I've got coming!